This parenting gig is NO joke let me tell you. If you are a parent then of course you’ll know. As someone who usually has a grip on everything, I have never felt more challenged in my entire life. Not necessarily a bad thing.
Seven and a half months in, this is the first time I feel totally helpless. Jordan has always been an incredibly curious little boy. He watches people and things with such intense concentration, taking it ALL in watching every movement, colour, leaf blowing in the wind. He has always been that way. Now that he is discovering that there is more to life than lying down and sitting up, he wants to get moving, he wants to explore.. he’s desperate for adventure.
Jordan has discovered how to ‘shuffle’ across the bed by gripping the duvet and pulling himself forward. He is such a strong little monkey and actually has calf and shoulder muscles at the tender age of 7.5 months.. he is BUSY! Jords tries to pull himself forward on his play mat, it doesn’t work, he cries. WAILS actually. Jordan gets incredibly bored very quickly and has started to moan when one of us aren’t within sight. Nic and I just don’t know how to handle it. Do we leave him to moan it out? Is Jords testing us? Does he already KNOW that if he just carrying on moaning we will eventually come to pick him up / sing to him / do a silly dance? Are we creating bad habits?
Jords will sit happily for about 5 minutes a session and then the vocals start. Poor sausage, I can totally understand that he just wants to move but I just don’t know what to do to help him. I feel useless. Jords is trying to pull himself up on everything he possibly can. He is not strong enough to stand yet and I *really* don’t want him to miss the fundamental stage of crawling. We have tried encouraging him by crawling around ourselves (you may laugh) and by coaxing him with all the ‘toys’ he loves the most. Nothing. He just gets more and more frustrated. I know he can crawl because he crawls on the bed, just nowhere else. He is only interested in standing otherwise. It makes him happy so I let him stand.. He can learn all the gross motor skills stuff later if need be. Is that bad? I have heard that before every big milestone is a bit of a breakdown for both mom and baby. Let’s not get into teething shall we?
Thank goodness Jords is a good night sleeper otherwise I think I would be a total wreck. I just feel very challenged right now. I suppose that is what parenting is, no? Between making sure he gets the right nutrition to providing him with the simulation he needs.. this *really* is a full-time job. Anyone who says otherwise is a liar. Being a mom is HECTIC!
Don’t misunderstand me. I know that Jords just needs time and that is okay. All babies are different, I get that and he is still so young. I am NOT forcing anything and I don’t mind when he reaches his milestones. All in his own precious time. Jords seems so unhappy at the best of times.. he moans more than he giggles these days and it’s heartbreaking to be around and to deal with. It’s probably a horrible combination of not being mobile and those top two little toofies that are so desperately trying to make their way out. I am just tired, and I feel completely helpless at the moment and writing this all out is my way of letting it go.
Having said all of this, a lot of you probably think I’m being a bit dramatic and I sort of feel silly complaining about these things that may be so insignificant in life. In all of this, as challenging as it may be.. I am ABOVE ALL, so grateful that we have a HEALTHY baby boy to love. I can’t imagine how strong one would have to be to deal with bigger things and I have huge amounts of respect for other dealing with real issues and challenges. We are really and so truly blessed with a beautiful healthy boy and I can not and will not ever over look or forget that. It’s good to be challenged sometimes, even though it really isn’t easy most days. A good old challenge builds character and makes us stronger at the end of it all. I can do this, of course I can. Man up, woman! *Pity party over* x